This is a tribute to you, his roommate.
The one he hugged when he went to sleep, the one he would talk about constantly, though call you an idiot. Also the one who has his best friend in a new city. Yes, this is for you.
I can't begin to express how much I envy you, for being there by his side all this while, when he suddenly got grumpy or when he suddenly started smiling. I wanted to be there for those moments, and those times when I sincerely wished I was you, because you got to hug him and sleep during the night. But I also thank you for the same and many other things.
This is to you who always he believed that he was a innocent even though all proved against.
To you, who was convinced that he loved me, even though he said he didn't. How were you so sure?
For all those times when you let me cry on your shoulder and heard every sob story I had to say about him. And the belief you gave me, that someday, it would all be alright.
You've seen our relationship since it was an infant. And you've seen it grow and fall down and bruise itself over and over again. You were there when it died, it's slow painful death. And you saw how it killed me and didn't touch him. You were there through it all, when after all, you were a stranger to me. I am eternally thankful.
I still remember the time when you told me to give it another shot, cause you said you knew how he felt. Just that thought gave me happiness. You always give me happiness. And ironically, more than he did, at that point. There were times when he said I should be with you, cause you understood me that well. Also those times, when he would scream at me for talking to you so much. Wow. I never thought I'd see him insecure.
Also, the most painful time, when I realized he moved on from me, and it killed me a little everyday, you urged me to talk to him. You tried to show him my pain. It's not your fault he didn't care, I'm just glad you did. And that time when I saw him love someone else, I just wish you were there, cause you'd know exactly how to make it better, with your stupid jokes, or just that reassuring hug.
He might call you the biggest idiot in the world and beat you up when he's frustrated. Deep down, he's just a confused child who needs that best friend to bully over. And he found you. But I'm glad. Because no one understands him the way you do, or ever will. He might think he knows you inside out, when it's quite the contrary.
And I will always be thankful to him, for bringing you into my life. Because even if things aren't the same between Him and me, there's nothing changing what's between the both of us.
You are the best friend anyone could have. And you'd make a splendid boyfriend too. I'll be your wing man. :)
Now, I'm a stronger person, I've moved on. But someday there will be another guy who comes along, with another roommate. And that day, I'll find another friend :)
I trust you to be that support for him and take care of the idiot that he is.
Dash and Dhruv, this is for both of you and I don't even need to say why.
You'll always be my angel in disguise :)
