Smiley

This might sound funny. But this post is about a smiley faced lollipop.
Yes, it is as simple as it sounds. That piece of heaven I found smiling up at me in an unknown land. I rummaged through a mall, looked all around, found things and then gave up on them, for different reasons every time. But when I lay my eyes on this little candy, I couldn't look away. The more I tried, the more it just sat there and smiled at me. Okay well, let me tell you, I wasn't the only one, obviously. But nevertheless, it caught my eye. I've always had a thing for tiny lollipops, but this particular yellow smiley faced one man, there was something about it really. It didn't ask for my attention, but got it anyway. And when I finally held it in my hands, I found myself smiling too. And boy had it been real long since those muscles had had any movement at all. I opened the wrapper for the first time and I saw Him roll his eyes at me. 'She just needs a distraction' he thought.
Maybe, maybe that's all I needed. He'd never understand. He never had.
That didn't matter. I had you. For now at least.
And you were just right smiley. Not too sweet, and just that right amount of sour.
You lasted for a long time, more than I or anyone else expected you to last for. Through the bitter beer, through the nasty rum, your taste evened it out. Made it taste a little better. Just for a while. Everyone around me saw me getting addicted to you, going on and on about how awesome you were and even when I didn't, my face showed that happiness of a little girl who was ecstatic to find that lollipop after a long dose of bitter medicine.

But somewhere deep down, I knew smiley, I knew that you'd be gone, your sweet sourness will only be a thing I can think about and smile. So I took pictures of you, stole some from others, and kept reminding myself of the smile you brought on my face.

Lines from a song repeated in my head over and over again 'Like everything I've known, you'll disappear one day'

So I looked at you and kept you close to my heart. I didn't open the wrapper for the second time, I didn't dare to, cuz I knew you'd disappear soon enough.

So now, till now, I think of you, whenever life brings me down, whenever you're not around, cuz you brought back the lost child in me baby. You did :)